New Year, New Chapter
Happy New Year, cunts!
High Priestess, Major Arcana Card realizes intuition, wisdom, divine knowledge, and the subconscious mind.
Last year took a lot out of all of us, and many of us are just struggling and praying that 2025 gives us the miracle, break, and ease we so desperately need. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that restlessness and anger will be at 100 this year. As we can all see after the first day of the year. So I ask you: when you finally let yourself feel the rage, do you know who to aim it at?
That will be the biggest issue I feel like we will face collectively: channeling our rage and directing it at the right targets. Can we learn not to lash out at those we love when the rage and pain gets too much? Are we ready to practice identifying someone who wants to hurt you and the mistakes of the someone who loves you? Are we ready to show grace only for those love of us instead of those who will never love us? Are we truly ready to do the difficult painful work of loving each other and nurturing relationships despite the flaws, trauma, and mistakes? Are we ready to stop disposing of people out of fear?
I don’t know if I am to be honest. But I do know that I am ready to stand alone. This past year showed me that I have had to be reliant on others only out of the need to survive. And though I am grateful, it is time for me to be okay with holding my own, not solely out of the need because of the lack of support or a desire to remain hyper-independent. But because I trust my own skills and capabilities, and I would rather nurture those parts of me through the creation process and its execution than waiting for others to show up for me. I need to learn how to rely and have faith in my abilities, so that I can better show up for the people in my life. I don’t want to question how or whether I should use my skills to uplift the people I love. As if what I can do won’t make a difference or be of comfort even if I fail. I have unfortunately had to be apart of so many spaces in the past few years that only wanted parts of me, and they rejected and devalued the key parts of me that make me, ME. And the stain it has left on my psyche has affected every aspect of my life. So with this new year and as we sit with this new administration coming our way, I realize that last year was for tending to those wounds people left me with. It’s time to hold myself closer with grace and forgiveness for not understanding my worth and what was being stolen from me as I was young and believed the best in people. I made sacrifices because I believed it was the right thing to do. And maybe it wasn’t appreciated. But there are people out there who not only want all of me, they will appreciate and love what I bring into their lives. They will love me as I show up as I am.
I hope that this year- we all find the tribe we deserve. I hope we find the people who will see our flaws and mistakes, and they still choose to fall deeper in love with us. We get on each others’ nerves. We can’t stand how hard headed they are, but we still love them. Because you wouldn’t want them any other way. With flaws and all, we still love and push each other to be better. With patience and grace, may we get closer to such a reality. And if you’re already living this reality, hold onto tightly and protect it by any means necessary. That love will our foundation to a culture and future for the next generation. I don’t say this to be sappy or cute, I mean this with pure clarity. It is our love for life in all of its forms that will get us through this. And it starts in those moments together.
I hope our paths cross this year, and we can share those moments together, y’all. In the meantime, hold yourselves with grace and love. Forgive yourself, nurture your confidence, and focus on living as much as healing. You deserve to be loved regardless of where you are. Happy New Year, my cunty crew <3